I was the lucky recipient of an envelope containing 23 photographs of my birthfather yesterday. These were compiled and sent to me by a paternal cousin. These dated back to when he was a toddler up through his teen years and they are just awesome!
There is one picture where he has his shirt off and is flexing like a muscleman. The goofy grin is just hilarious and his mugging for the camera is something I would do…
The weirdest part is seeing his flexed arm. I look at his arm and I see my arm! I am not sure of the classification but he and I are built the same. Tall and long muscled rather than bulky.
There is only one picture that bothers me. It is him, his father and his grandfather. He is holding his newborn daughter who was born 9 months after me with another woman. The look on his face is disturbing. Happy and yet sort of sad. I had mentioned before that he knew I was born and knew I was a boy. In this picture, he would have known about me. All the other pictures were before shots.
I do wonder if I am trying to read more into the picture than is really there. The eternal adoptee looking for some acknowledgement. Always wondering if he forgot about me. Looking for something/anything that says he cared….
6 responses so far ↓
Suz // September 18, 2009 at 9:32 am |
What a handsome man! Do you look like him or B? (I dont think you ever posted a photo of yourself).
I would guess you are correct, he is thinking of you in that photo. His heart has to be so conflicted and confused. I know mine always is/was with my subsequent children. You cannot look into the face of the subsequent without reflecting on the first that you lost.
Hugs to you.
Reunited Dan // September 18, 2009 at 9:36 am |
I am a combination of both. He and I have the same body type and eyes. My hair coloring and nose is hers. Neat after 47 years to be able to figure that out!
Reunited Dan // September 18, 2009 at 9:38 am |
He was handsome! I tell folks I got my studliness from him although I hide mine under age and fat!
angelle2 // September 18, 2009 at 9:56 am |
Your dad was a handsome guy!
Glad you have those pictures and glad you are posting.
Kim // September 18, 2009 at 11:25 am |
I think he would have thought about you a lot. He looks so young in the photo holding his daughter. The fact that she was born less that a year after you were born speaks volumes.
Jasmin // September 21, 2009 at 8:07 am |
I’ll bet you that he thought about you more than you will ever know. He never forgot you, none of us do.
I am so glad that you got those pictures, I am sure that you will treasure them.